Feeling blue and feeling happy
I’m a mix of emotions these days
Can’t complain though because the good days are wonderful
Amazing in fact
But then the wonderment fades when I have to return home
Go back to the melodramatic atmosphere and existence
They say that one should never give up
But it doesn’t feel like giving up when I’m looking to give my life new meaning
I want to feel happy and free again
I do, for the most part when I am alone at home or when I am out with my friends
I love those days when I have it to myself and can do whatever I like….
But a part of my heart is opening up to new emotions
While another part of it is just cold and shut down….
I don’t quite know what to do with myself really
It’s not like I ever wanted to hurt anyone in my life
I just don’t want to live a life that others have drawn up for me…
I want to live a life that I see in my heart…
One where I am more in control and also free
Is that such a wrong thing?