View of the private garden from the veranda
Spend the weekend away from the city and for once, I actually feel rejuvenated. My friend and I picked a secluded and private property that housed 12 personal villas. We had not just a room to ourselves, but also our own private garden, terrace and veranda as well. 

Our little veranda – my reading nook

Our stay at Calamansi Cove by Jetwing was of two nights, and on a full board basis. I’d recommend this to anyone who wishes to stay at their property simply because ofthe excellent  service and wonderful meals available via their set menus. Taking to account that everything was inclusive of service charges and taxes, it was well worth the money spent. 

Breakfast spread

The food was simply amazing. Breakfast choices included a continental spread inclusive of a separate plate of freshly baked breads, fruit, and pancakes apart from what you can see in the above image, and a fresh juice of our choice, plus coffee or tea. 

Poolside view

I made it a point to take a dip in the pool on both the days we stayed. The ocean was just a few metres away but the waves were pretty rough so a sea bath was certainly not an option. 

The beautiful Indian Ocean
Fried rice with devilled chicken for lunch

Lunch and dinner options on both days were quite extensive as well. My friend and I decided to pick different selections off the menu just so we could try everything. Again, the courses were so good – inclusive of a salad/appetizer, soup, main dish and dessert. 

I spent most of the two days just reading, mindful meditating and with my phone far away as possible. Sometimes, all we need is a getaway to be thankful for the life we have. 



A Bit of Happiness

Don’t we all long for it? A little bit of happiness, at least, every single day to keep our zest for life alive? I like to think yes. We all do. But why is it so hard to be happy nowadays? Why is happiness so costly? In today’s world, happiness can cost you time, money, effort and energy, friends, family and even your life. But why is it that we still harness all our might and strength, determination and energy to find it even in the slightest form? I’d like to think because it’s worth it. It has to be right? Correct me if I’m wrong, but why else would we struggle all our lives to find it if otherwise? 


In the end, what we all want as humans is to live a good life and be happy. Do it, without harming or hurting others. Falter if you must, and learn from it. Life will always continue to throw hurdles and hardships along the way. Embrace the battle and let go stronger than ever before. Make up your mind about what you want to do in life and strive to achieve just that. And, always remember that this is YOUR life; no one has any right over you and can tell you what to do with it or how to live it. YOU decide that. 

Paean II

My emotions are all over the place right now and I don’t know if I’ll make sense. It’s purely thoughts scrammed in my little brain and thoughts that have consumed my heart. Last night – was hard. It was harsh and painful. I don’t think I’ve ever cried like that. I have not felt that kind of excruciating pain and aching in my heart ever. It wasn’t an experience. It was no good. I lay there, an hour later, exhausted and feeling completely consumed by saddened emotion. I don’t know what came over me. I lay on the ground, unable to breathe normally and unable to move a muscle. I lay there, staring at the door, the ceiling, the wall…just staring. I thought I’d at least feel some void, some emptiness but it didn’t come. Only hurt arrived at my door. And pain. Two uninvited guests. I dislike them very much. But then, what choice did I have but to welcome them into my body, mind and soul? None at all. 

My March

The past few weeks have been a rough but well learning ride. Apart from embarking on finding myself, and what I want from/in life, I also neeeded clarity. I needed clarity regarding the life I was choosing to live, on those who are/were a part of my life and who I wanted to be and what I was willing to go through in order to achieve that. 

Life’s hard and it’ll always be. I expect it to be no different to me. Once you make the right choices for yourself though, there is a sense of calm, peace and happines. I had been longing for that, for far too long. It isn’t easy to decide to end relationships that you’ve been a part of for years, and to find a new path to follow for yourself. We live in a world and I live in a country where the society and community is everything and it’s hard to not follow what is declared normal. Be mindful enough to be able to clarify what and identify what you want and what the society wants. They are most likely two VERY different things. And that’s okay. 

I know now that I can never or hardly ever live up to others’ expectations of myself. I am beyond that. It’s important to me however that I simply live up to mine. Social normals and realities aside, it’s important to find out what is normal and right in my eyes. How do I see myself? How do you see yourself? I know it’s easy for someone to advice you against listening to others and yet, take it fro someone who knows when I say, you really shouldn’t. It’s easy for the mind and heart to fall prey to words that are uttered in shame, anger, pain and disappointment. It does not howevr mean that they are true. Let people talk. They always will. Try not to let it affect you. I’m trying. Words hardly ever die, but a ruined peace of mind is hard to find and nuture so hold on to it as best as you can. 

It may sound ignorant or very stubborn of me, but a close friend told me I need to be thick skinned during hard times. I’m grateful for that piece of advice. It’s gotten me through rough days and harsh criticism. The negativity is hardly ever going to stop when I’ve chosen to do something out of the norm or against what is expected of me. That’s okay too. I can make my peace with that. I choose to let the negativity fall behind my back and continue to move forward. Life does not stop or wait for you. You’ve got to keep moving. 

Finding stability at a hard time and wen you’re just about discovering youself is a bit daunting, but once you start focusing on all the good things in life, stability will follow. Having a job or career that you enjoy, a great support system and friends you can always count on are geat ways to ensure your life continues to go on as best as it can. 

I tell myself, that it is okay to depend on myself. The voices around me misjudge and criticise me for it. All I often hear are the many ways it is a wrong choice to make and the many regrets I will have in my old age. I do it anyways. Why? Because I’m doing it for myself. I owe myself that much. My parents or relatives or friends aren’t always going to be there for me. I know that. This is my life afterall – I come first. Everyone else is secondary. I tell myself to have confidence in myself an to trust that I will be there when I am needed most. Life isn’t about what othes would do for you. What about what you would do for yourself? Be your own confidant, your own friend. Once you believe and trust in yourself, you will be unstoppable. 

What if I gravely fall ill or meet with an accident? Ive been asked these questions countless times. They are possible scenarios but I try not to get too caught up in them. Is the solutin finding a partner so that I can be taken care of? I don’t intend on being cocky or over confident, but I trust that I can take care of myself. I know wahat I am capable of and am not stupid enough to take wild risks. I know when to depend on myself and I know when to ask for help. As long as I am clear on those two terms, I know I have nothing to worry about.