Today wasn’t necessarily a good day. I went through a roller coaster of emotions all morning and afternoon. I spent pretty much the entire day in my room, with the curtains closed and barely any light cuz I felt so low. Yet I feel like something good came out of being that way all day. I don’t understand why I felt a little lost, bewildered and alone (I know I could have gone out and done something) but I feel like being by myself taught me something valuable so all is not lost out of today. Sometimes some things happen in our lives and even though often we do not understand it, it benefits us in many ways and we should be thankful. Simply put, it pays to have a little faith.
Here’s to sparking inspiration; here’s to igniting the drive in me to write again. It may sound odd to many of you when I say I haven’t written in months when I have been uploading blog posts but what I mean is I haven’t been doing my job since…well, March. I don’t know what happened inside me but it felt like something was missing and not right. Even after visiting India in April, I had so many ideas in my head but I just couldn’t sit down and get myself to write about any of it….until last week. I finally wrote one piece but hell it took the life out of me. The moment I opened up Word Document on my laptop I had goosebumps and I nearly cried. I really cannot explain what it was but I literally forced myself to finish the write up and mailed it right away to my editor. I’ve not written anything since….so yeah I thought getting myself a pretty little journo might spark some inspiration and lead me back to my passion. I’ve never experienced such a block in my life and have never gone without writing in eight years….this is new territory to me and although I am stumbling along, I’m positive of continuing to try. I don’t want to lose this part of me because writing is basically what I live for and a huge part of who I am. While I’m still trying to figure out other things in my life, I find that it’s important to focus on my writing because it does give me so much joy and satisfaction. This is something I do not want to give up. I’m gonna keep fighting for it and hope for the best!
Much love, xoxo
Nobody ever said life was easy. The worst part is it is never truly all that hard either. Life is about simplicity and how you adjust to it. In today’s world where simplicity is lost, hold on to what little you have and be thankful. I know I am thankful for what I have in mine. It’s not everything I ever wanted but it’s more than I could ask for and that’s good enough for me. I have love, I have strength and I have faith. I too believe it’s important to love and feel as much as possible in this world. What becomes of life if we do not risk it all and feel from every inch of our hearts? Life would be so bleak. Love isn’t easy either but love is simple in every possible way. For the most part, you fall in love without even realising it and that’s the beauty of it. The way it whisks your heart, the way it makes you feel at the dead of night, the way you hum underneath your breathe just because you’re happy…. the way memories fill your heart and mind at every moment every single day…the way your entire day revolves around that extra beat in your heart… Risk it all for it’s worth it. Life will break you if not love.